Litte stressed, a lot blessed.

Mmmmm my life is so good. Sometimes I have to take a step back and look at it and think of how blessed I really am. And when things come along and make life hard, I have to remember that there are no good seasons without bad seasons to compare them to. There is a lack of contrast if everything goes according to plan. Nothing grows on top of a mountain.

So even though I pretty much dislike my job, and it gives me massive headaches every day
And even though my family is falling apart, and I dont know if this is good or bad
And even though I am in debt up to my eyeballs, and will continue to be, unless something drastic takes place. And even though I feel sick and have a funny bump that hurts on my leg....

Today is a great day, because I am alive! And because He is Alive! And in Him, I live and move and have my being. In Him I am free live, I am free to give, I am free to be, I am free to love.

Yay God!

:)

Only you can prevent forest fires!

Ew. Smoke.

What the heck is going on around here?

He is breaking me, and I am all tangled up trying to hold on to the pieces.

It is so sad, so true how I am learning to trust and refusing to let go all at once.

I am so very human.

Let go... I am trying

Let go... what does that mean?

Let go... choosing to hold nothing is choosing to have everything.

Yeild I to I Am.


On a lighter note, today I started writting down prayers for one of my co workers who seems kinda depressed and he just started laughing when I realeased JOY over him. And he just kept laughing, and he didnt even know why! lol it was sooo good!

I am trying to let Him uncover the very best version of me.

I am trying to remember that the clay doesn't give the potter imput.

I am trying to stop thinking so much.

Because when I think with my mind I give into confusion,

but when I focus with my spirit He creates clarity.

There is a river.

So I started my new job yesterday! Its pretty awesome, and I think it will be pretty simple once I figure everything out.

I have been reading and studying about fair trade and exploited workers in third world countries A LOT lately. One of the books suggested going through your closest and making a tally sheet of the differant brands you have, and how many items of each brand you own. The end result was this:
Your clothes hurt people.

I am still trying to put this together in my head.
Everyone is a big word.

Jobs, and better Jobs.

There is an offering reading that Bethel does sometimes...
it goes like this

OFFERING OF THANKS #1
As we receive today's offering
We are believing the Lord for:
Jobs and better jobs,
Raises and bonuses
Benefits Sales and commissions
Favorable settlements
Estates and inheritances
Interests and income
Rebates and returns
Checks in the mail
Gifts and surprises
Finding money
Debts paid off
Expenses decrease
Blessing and increase
Thank You, Lord, for meeting all of my financial needs that I may havemore than enough to give into the Kingdom of God and promote the Gospel of Jesus Christ.
Hallelujah!!!!!!

So we read this in church about a week ago and... I think it might be working! Imagine that... prayers answered! :) I had an interveiw today with Wells Fargo, a call back about a job at a furnature store that I am going to at 3:30 today, and an email about a written exam for another job working for the county. The thing is that if Wells Fargo moves me on in the interveiw process and this lady at the furnature store offers me a job today I dont know what I will do! I know that the people at the bank liked me and were possibly impressed by me, but if I pass up this other job with the store in order to move forward with the bank, what if the bank doesnt end up offering me a job!

And then I remember that God doesnt give broken blessings. If He wants me to work at Wells Fargo, then that is where I will work. If He wants me to work at the furnature store, then I will work there, and if both of those fall out then maybe its the county I am supposed to be working for, and I will go there! :0 But what about... rent?

Trust and Obey, there is no other way than to trust and obey.

Scrabble. <3

Independence Day is over, and I think it may have been the best one ever.
Even though it was firework free. :(

I cant believe how easy it is to fall in love with the culture here at Bethel.
I keep meeting all of these amazing people who are so in love with God, and I keep hearing the same thing over and over and over again.

YOU ARE FREE TO BE YOU HERE.

And thats a very daunting thing. As amazing as it is, being free to be myself actually requires me knowing myself. And that is still a mystery to me.
So I found this book "Discovering who you are" at the library.
Its really a book of writing assignments that are aimed at discovering the inner me; goody.
So I suppose that will be what I write about here for the next few days.
Not that it matters, because I am pretty sure that only my mom reads this, and she already knows me better than I know myself.

So here goes: Describe you perfect marrage proposal.

First and foremost, NO RED ROSES anywhere in sight. lol
I just erased a whole sentence because I was being to whishy washy. None of that here.
This is what I want. I want my Boyfriend to invite me over to play Scrabble. One, because I love Scrabble. Two because smart people play Scrabble and I want whoever I marry to be smarter than me. And then, while I go to the bathroom, or get water or whatever, He would set up the Scrabble board with letters that ask me to marry him. That would be lovely. And then I would come back into the room and see him putting the last letter in, and accuse him of cheating. And then he would spin the board around (he owns the deluxe version of Scrabble, as all smart people do) and get down on one knee and I would say yes, mostly because he followed these directions so well. Hahahaha.
Then, all of my family and his family would come out of no where and take pictures and clap.

The End.

Its a bit nerdy, but what can I say, thats just me!

Tyler Perry= Seveare irritation

Wells Fargo called me for an interveiw, a real live personal interveiw with the bank manager!
Praise the Lord!

Can I be a Christian and hate Tyler Parry movies? Cause I am and I do.

This crazy lady named roxy invited me to her house tonight, so I am going to take off over there soon.

Shout out to my mom for being the only person who reads my blog :)
Love you mom!